A lot has happened since I last posted. Its the worst thing ever to admit that you failed at your marriage. It's another to be in the situation where you're a mother with out one of your children. I never thought I'd be a free woman. Free of abuse and neglect. Free of all the negativity that engulfed my daily existence.
I can say I was depressed. I can say I was a puddle of a person where a woman once stood. I can say now that I am starting to live my life again. This is one of the most trying times in my entire life. That I wake up sometimes and say "I can't believe I made it through... And although I'm not through to the other side yet that I'm well on my way."
Removing toxic people from my life was key to my sanity. They seldom leave quietly and it's painful. Old habits are difficult to break. To say to someone that they are no longer welcome when you have been too nice for too long is difficult at best. But I love myself enough now to handle it.
I have found the most incredible, supportive, loving, decent man in the world. I honestly didn't think he existed for me. It's truly amazing how one person can change everything with a smile and a few loving words. I feel completely blessed and loved by the people I've now surrounded myself with.
More to come my vixxens... Stay tuned, my mojo is brewing again.
